Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Making Choices

This past weekend Jenny and I had a long talk about growing up and the choices we've been making along that journey.  Although we didn't come to any conclusions, it is safe to say that we have no idea what we're doing.

This stage of life is full of so many decisions - decisions that will impact everything that happens in life from here on out.  And yet, we're expected to make these decisions rather suddenly - without a lot of time for additional exploration.  Jobs are offered and require response before others are even posted, schools have different dates of admittance, and while we're trying to make the best decisions for ourselves given limited information our closest friends and supports are struggling to do the same.  What chaos.

Although life is always full of unknowns, the presence of so many opens up the doors to doubt about the choices we do make.  How do we close that door?  Can we? 

I have learned to be thankful for small amounts of doubt in my life because it forces me to defend choices and learn more about myself in the process.  I know wonderful opportunities will be found down any path taken and the discovery of those opportunities is part of the beauty of the journey, but I still can't help but long for even a crude map to help navigate the next few years.  How well do I really trust my inner compass?

Then again, it is not only my inner compass guiding me.  I have an incredible support system and a faith that provides more direction than I could imagine - even if it is often behind the scenes.  Mother Theresa has always been a significant figure in my life, and this prayer of hers serves as a reminder that I'm not doing this alone...

May today there be peace within.
May you trust God that you are exactly where you are meant to be.
May you not forget the infinite possibilities that are born of faith.
May you use those gifts that you have received, and pass on the love that has been given to you.
May you be confident knowing you are a child of God. Let this presence settle into your bones, and allow your soul the freedom to sing, dance, praise and love.

It is there for each and every one of us.

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